No one ever talks about the hard stuff. Having a baby- beautiful, life-changing-rewarding-love. But no one talks about how difficult it is to communicate with a human who can’t communicate. The crying, the sobbing- is it coming from him or from me? Am I doing this right? Am I damaging him already? Thoughts. Racing. Doctors rushing. 10 minutes go by and you’re on a table with all your parts laid out- parts of you that you haven’t even learned to love yet- but ones put back together to love a little person-unconditionally. No one talks about the hard stuff.
-G. Shadou | https://anchor.fm/gabbieshadou